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4​-​track Demos 1996

by Caitlin von Schmidt

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1.
Bullet Through Hadley Eleanor woke in the night just to see him turn over She felt her heart tight inside like the bloom of a flower She woke at daybreak and watched as his breath went inside him He woke embarrassed and spoke with his eye on the door jamb Inside the bathroom he looked at his face in the mirror He longed to hold her but knew that he’d never forgive her They walked together but stood on two sides of the ocean One thought of God and one thought of an act of devotion And then he was gone and she saw that she wanted him badly She opens her eyes as she flies like a bullet through Hadley
2.
Blue Angel 03:37
Blue Angel Everytime I think I forget, there you are, there you are And everytime I hear your voice, I’m lost again, lost again You be Marlena and I’ll be your beau In a smoke-filled barroom we’ll have it all Cos you’re a blue angel and I’m down below Looking for heaven and driving slow Ich bin eine frau allein Traurig und einsame I want you to come home I light a candle, I pray to St. Jude I get no answers as I knew I would Cos you’re a blue angel and I’m just a girl But I don’t mind waiting till you fall to earth Ich bin eine frau allein
3.
He Sits Alone He sits alone but he doesn’t mine She wonders why he sits alone What makes him so restless What makes her want to pin him down Were they taught by their parents Or do they make it up as they go along She wanted him but she couldn’t say He wanted her but he went home alone anyway What makes him so restless What makes her want to pin him down Were they taught by their parents Or do they make it up as they go along He, he was afraid so he let her go She just assumed so now, now she’ll never know What makes him so restless What makes her want to pin him down Were they taught by their parents Or do they make it up as they go along He sits alone
4.
The Girl Who Should’ve Married Elvis Sitting in a late-night bar, watching money disappear Staring into one more glass of beer And the man I’ve been talking with looks strangely familiar Elvis in his early-Vegas years And the later it gets the more I seem to find I look at him with someone else in mind And I wonder why the sun never sets on me, still I’m not satisfied It’s no wonder why I’ll always feel alone I’m the girl who should’ve married Elvis, I’m the girl who should’ve married Elvis Trouble comes and trouble goes and always stops to say hello Taps me on the shoulder on the fly And if I had a brain I’d see the person sitting next to me’s No more the king than me, myself, and I But still it seems to me if I could touch his face I’d be transported to that state of Grace land And I wonder why the sun never sets on me, still I’m not satisfied It’s no wonder why I’ll always feel alone I’m the girl who should’ve married Elvis, I’m the girl who should’ve married Elvis Push over Priscilla, I’m movin’ in, push over Priscilla, I’m movin’ in Push over Priscilla, I’m movin’ in People say that I’m insane but I know I’ll see him someday In a Burger King or Circle K No one else will be around, I’ll recognize him by his voice Tell him that he hasn’t any choice I’ve waited all this time just to be the one To spend my life with music’s chosen son And I wonder why the sun never sets on me, still I’m not satisfied It’s no wonder why I’ll always feel alone I’m the girl who should’ve married Elvis, I’m the girl who should’ve married Elvis I’m the girl who should’ve married Elvis
5.
The Smallest State I can’t have you, I have a cigarette No matter how I try I just can’t quit The time went easy but went too fast I know right now you’re not so far away In fact you’re even in the smallest state But if I go there and call your name You won’t hear Jumped in with both feet again, it’s sink or swim Into the deep end again because of him I’m sinking just like a stone, the light grows dim The surface I fear I’ll never see again I may have come across as unconcerned I may have spoken slightly out of turn You can believe, I want you bad I’ll try to practice being sweet and kind Though now and then I’ll tease if you don’t mind If you just call me I’d let you know how I feel Jumped in with both feet again, it’s sink or swim Into the deep end again because of him I’m sinking just like a stone, the light grows dim The surface I fear I’ll never see again I feel as if my head just might explode If I just knew I’d be there on the road You couldn’t keep me from your door Instead I sit and smoke and smoke and wait And when you call me it’ll be too late The same old story, that’s all she wrote for you and me Jumped in with both feet again, it’s sink or swim Into the deep end again because of him I’m sinking just like a stone, the light grows dim The surface I fear I’ll never see again
6.
Sweetheart 02:13
Sweetheart Sweetheart, sweetheart Sweetheart, sweetheart Just a word I used to use a lifetime ago Sweetheart, sweetheart I used to feel so safe You gave me shelter from the world Till you pulled the rug right out from under me Sweetheart, sweetheart Now you say, this one is different Now you say, you won’t hurt her Like you hurt me Like you hurt the ones before Sweetheart So now you’ve changed your spots So you’ve learned to love again Wasn’t that how you found me or am I wrong Sweetheart, sweetheart She seems so awfully young I can almost feel for her If she knew what we know now would she run From sweetheart, sweetheart Now you say, this one is different Now you say, you won’t hurt her Like you hurt me Like you hurt the ones before Sweetheart I wish I could wish you well Tell you better luck this time But my throat feels just a little bit too tight Sweetheart, sweetheart
7.
Mercy 03:20
Mercy By her bedside there’s a picture A couple walking hand in hand But their faces can’t be seen And it might have been a dream If only she could say And by his bedside there’s a picture That she drew him long ago Of the first place they made love Now it’s all he’s thinking of As he feels her slip away And it’s not easy letting go Even when you know When you know that it’s all over And it’s not easy Even when it’s right To say goodbye, goodbye If she tries hard she remembers How it was before the pain Now she lays awake at night And she prays to God on high Please let it be today And by her bedside he stands watching Wishing it were him instead And he won’t believe it’s wrong As the tears begin to come And he turns his face away And it’s not easy letting go Even when you know When you know that it’s all over And it’s not easy Even when it’s right To say goodbye, goodbye Every Sunday he still sees her And he brings a small bouquet There’s a willow and a stream And a space left for his name And he wishes he could stay And it’s not easy letting go Even when you know When you know that it’s all over And it’s not easy Even when it’s right To say goodbye, goodbye And it’s not easy letting go Even when you know When you know that it’s all over And it’s not easy Even when it’s right To say goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
8.
She Didn’t Even Mind I went to bed, I had a dream And in my dreams the sky was blue I had a friend there in my dream And my friend looked something like you But in my dream my friend was alone And in my dream my friend was with me every day I had a dream and in my dream I saw things as they ought to be You were with her but somehow you knew That someday soon you’d have to be with me And in my dream she didn’t even mind She let you go without a second glance It was my dream I got to bed, I have a dream I’m sleeping more and more every day When I’m awake I’m all alone But in my dream the pain goes away Cos in my dream you hold me in your arms I know you’ll always be by my side in my dream In my dream
9.
Vision Splendid Yesterday I hit my head I had a vision splendid You know damn well it was you When I came to I felt my nose I found that it was bleeding I knew what I had to do So pick me up like a baby, lay me down, lay me down So come on, double dare me You’re the one, you’re the one In a daze I walked around I had the strangest feeling That I’d been here before Everywhere I walked I found your house was waiting So I went up to the door So pick me up like a baby, lay me down, lay me down So come on, double dare me You’re the one, you’re the one And if you’re thinking it’s not right Then I’m thinking that you’re wrong I should know where I belong You weren’t home I left a note And then I crossed my fingers And knocked on wood I asked my 8-ball what to do And it said “it is certain” I guess that’s good So pick me up like a baby, lay me down, lay me down So come on, double dare me You’re the one, you’re the one You’re the one, you’re the one
10.
Words 05:01
Words When words come out They come out all wrong I have so much to say But I waited too long I put pen to paper Write you a letter I’ll never send I want to tell you But I don’t know how I had so much with you Look what I’ve got now I want to call you But I can’t phone She might be home Do you remember How I love you Yes, I loved you As I remember You loved me too If I had the chance Here’s what I would say Thanks for everything Sorry I didn’t stay And now it’s all over And what do you know I can’t let go Do you remember How I love you Yes, I loved you As I remember You loved me too Do you remember How I love you Yes, I loved you As I remember You loved me too
11.
Sweet Dreams of Me When you lay your head on your pillow When you lay your head, sweet dreams And if you dream of me you will forget it in the morning And if you dream of her, sweet dreams anyway Yesterday I dreamt you still love me Even when I woke it was hard to face the truth Sometimes I think I will wait until forever Even though you say you’ll never change your mind Used to be my dreams were empty Now when I lay my head I turn to you, my friend Everybody says someday I will forget you But nobody knows the rhythm of my dreams So when you lay your head on your pillow When you lay your head, sweet dreams of me
12.
The River Winding On the sidewalks, mortals On the buildings, angels poised to leap Turning their faces to the sky and Smiling, smiling, smiling In a fever, flowers If I saw you I saw you floating in the air Your mouth like a fortune I can’t read Smiling, smiling, smiling There’s a full moon rising tonight There’s a full moon rising tonight As the river winding Meets the ocean waiting, waiting with open arms So I’ll find you turning in a room and Smiling, smiling, smiling Smiling, smiling, smiling Smiling, smiling, smiling
13.
Time Is Everything In your desert I have heard The sun sets like a bleeding heart And all the time in all the world Won’t pay for time we’ve spent apart Before you make up your mind think about me And if you want to take a walk I’ll walk with you, no matter how far And if you want to lay a while And only lay, I’ll lay with you Until you ask me to stay or tell me to go Time, time is everything Timing’s everything You were in the right place at the right time So was I And if you feel afraid to move Don’t move at all, I’ll come to you Just don’t be afraid to talk I’ve heard it all, I’m a big girl You don’t have to pretend when you’re with me Time, time is everything Timing’s everything You were in the right place at the right time So was I Take my hand and we’ll walk Take my time and we’ll talk Take my heart, I want you too I’m not afraid of you And if you want some time alone Well, so do I, I’m human too I don’t expect a perfect world I only want to be with you Time, time is everything Timing’s everything You were in the right place at the right time So was I
14.
Fairytale 02:59
Fairytale Once upon a time There you were and there was I And when the weather got too hot We’d roll down the windows and drive a lot It would never end, we thought Once upon a time I could hold your hand in mine And never feel you pull away And not be the only one to say Whatever happened anyway And what makes a heart turn around And around and around and around What makes the clock run down And what makes a heart hope after hope After every hope is gone And everything is done Once upon a time A princess stood in line But the dragon couldn’t stay And with nothing left to slay The prince just rode away
15.
Godzilla 02:53
Godzilla You woke up Godzilla, he was sleeping soundly Underneath the water outside of Japan When he tramples cities I hope that you feel guilty ‘Cause you woke up Godzilla when you were kissing me Run in terror puny human from the horror of Godzilla Buildings topple, mountains crumble, the earth will open up Tidal waves and claps of thunder, all the world is rent asunder Trifle with the beast Godzilla, you will have to pay You thought it was easy, just one special evening You could take your leave then and leave me all alone But everywhere you go now you will find Godzilla Shiver in his shadow, his foot is coming down Run in terror puny human from the horror of Godzilla Buildings topple, mountains crumble, the earth will open up Tidal waves and claps of thunder, all the world is rent asunder Trifle with the beast Godzilla, you will have to pay You woke up Godzilla, he was sleeping soundly Now he’s on the rampage, see what you have done Helpless victims scramble, see the strong men tremble ‘Cause you woke up Godzilla when you were kissing me Run in terror puny human from the horror of Godzilla Buildings topple, mountains crumble, the earth will open up Tidal waves and claps of thunder, all the world is rent asunder Trifle with the beast Godzilla, you will have to pay Trifle with the beast Godzilla, you will have to pay Trifle with the beast Godzilla, you will have to pay
16.
1001 Nacht 06:53
1001 Nacht Things that go up, things that go down Things that go ‘round till your brain flattens out Your heart attempting to pump Caution this ride exerts 3 Gs That doesn’t seem like pressure to me If you were me, and I was you What would we do, what would we do Up in the air, up in the sky Cling to the sides, open your eyes The never-ending mystery, the all-embracing majesty One cooling breeze, one distant scream Just you and me and 1001 Nacht Lights of red, lights of blue Lights of every conceivable hue The answers to all your desires Caution, not for the faint of heart This ride is likely to tear you apart If we had the nerve, and we took the time What would we find, what would we find Up in the air, up in the sky Cling to the sides, open your eyes The never-ending mystery, the all-embracing majesty One cooling breeze, one distant scream Just you and me and 1001 Nacht Look out, I see a pin slipping Look out, I hear a gear grinding Suddenly the ground seems a long way down And no magic carpet around 1001 Nacht, 1001 Nacht, and one nacht

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The 1996 demos were recorded on a TEAC Tascam analog 4-track recorder in my mother's home in Amherst where I was living. The songs were written at various times over the preceding years.

All songs were written by me.

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released September 19, 2023

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Caitlin von Schmidt Greenfield, Massachusetts

Caitlin lives in western Mass with her husband, kid, and cat.

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